Hi Friend
Do you have something you want to share, are excited about sharing, but now is not the right time to share it? Me toooooo! Delayed communication is like delayed gratification… you know it’s coming, but have to wait for the thrill of its appearance.
Do you have an upcoming dreaded encounter that you can feel the yucky dark gloom already, but know it will be significantly more tangible when it actually occurs? Me toooooo! Delayed pain has a strange pre-residue that is thick and weighty.
Do you ever wish there were two of you to accomplish all the things you need to get done? One to do all the fun stuff, the other to do all the unpleasant, but necessary tasks? I could go either way on this one. However, today I’m feeling the need for a clone.
I had breakfast with my son this week. He’s such a good dude. 🥰
That’s an unusual opening compared to my normal ramblings. However, it’s consistent with the fact that I sat down and let flow whatever decided to come out. I have this dual sensationhappening that is currently clogging my brain. It’s a mix of glee and despair, anticipation and apprehension, excitement and fear. The upcoming future is packed with the unknown.
It definitely makes me want to go for a run. But not run away. I find myself taking a lot of deep breaths lately. My brain is working harder than it has in a while and seems to be gasping for oxygen. At this moment, I feel a sense of UH-OH.
I’m living in and through decisions I made previously which now the results have arrived. The unknown future of yesterday is the very aware reality of today. It’s thrilling and painful.
I’m Being Streeeeeeeeeetched!
My mind, imagination, emotions, beliefs, abilities, faith and complete capacity are under a mandatory expansion. I think I’m gonna vomit. 🤮 Sorry. Seriously though, the stretching of the soul is extraordinarily arduous. I keep thinking I might not be up for it. With seeming uncaring from the situations and circumstances, there actually isn’t offered an option for me NOT to be, however.
Stretch Sensations
It hurts.
It entices.
It frightens.
It teases.
It threatens.
It enlivens.
I can’t tell if I love it or hate it! The duality of BEING and BECOMING is quite contentious. It’s a battle of security versus growing.
I’m producing the OKHR Conference THIS WEEK. The audience will be over 600. We are doing a handful of things I have never done before. Because of the size of the event, I’ve had to shift from Zoom to Vimeo. I’ve never used it for streaming before. Between you and me, I’m kinda freaked out. Shhhhhhh. It’s streeeeeeetching me!
I mean, you know I tend to make up a lot of life as I go along. That is true personally and in my business. So far, and I say this with humility and gratitude, it’s worked out OK. (Though with some devastations along the way).
What’s caused my concern is I care very much for the people I’m working with and they’ve put in extraordinary time to get us to this point. They have great faith in me. I hope to not only meet their expectations but muster up a bit of delight and awe as well.
It’s more of that tension. It would be easy to think I’m feeling the weight because I don’t want to disappoint them. But honestly, who does want to disappoint anyone? Or we could assess that either I want to impress them or fear looking like an idiot. I’ve looked like an idiot before, it’s a temporary sensation.
The truth is my care for them is compelling me, charging me, to be excellent. I’m so fond of them, I want my part to matchtheir contribution, heart and results. It’s stretching the heck out of me!
Friend, have you ever loved someone and it caused you to want to grow in every way possible, not so you were qualified, but so you were complimentary? I have that sensation in my professional life too!
Love Stretches Us Best!
Instigating Ideas
1. What is causing you to stretch? Are you resisting or embracing it?
2. Who do you care for enough to grow? Tell them.
3. How do you find relief in the midst of streeeeeeetching?
4. Are you in environments around people that force you to grow?
When fear is the motivator to become something we’re not, it rarely, if ever, turns out satisfying in the long run. Same with guilt, shame, embarrassment and disappointment. If you need to stretch and grow in different area’s of your life, find a love motivation, even if it’s loving yourself (or possibly mostly because you love yourself).